Don't Give Up | Washed Out

Hello, World!

Yesterday I was reminded of how fucking magical music is:

E-Mail Subject: I’m so mad at this song right now!

Me: 

Aaren: does it make you sad?

Me: yeah. it does. because. i’m not a person that gives up…sometimes to my own detriment. and i really hate giving up on people. this song made me really want to reach out. but i’m just scared shitless to. fucking music.

Aaren: I am sorry. But maybe it isn’t quitting maybe it is redirecting :)

Me: i appreciate your perspective. i didn’t give up on love. i just gave up on believing it could come from a particular person. i just lost hope. whether it be valid, or healthy, or needed, it just made me feel hopeless. and that will just always be an feeling that doesn’t sit well with me. i swear i’m going to die of gangrene one day

Aaren: This just makes me sad that you feel so defeated. I think stick with the not giving up on love. You have to pick and sometimes we pick wrong, though I think it isn’t wrong if it eventually makes us pick wiser. I think you should pat yourself on the back for trying because that was a hard step to take, and hopefully next time it will be easier. Feeling a little emo today are we, Miss Sadia :)

Me

: 

i was’t feeling emo until i head this song! that is the fucking beautiful and grotesque thing about good music! It turns you into this weird remote controlled emotional robot and the song moves you in whatever sentimental direction it wants. don’t feel too sad. I can feel defeated every once in a while. i gotta feel that way sometimes. 

and anyway…another track always comes on that nakes me feel invisible…like this one! 

https://soundcloud.com/cyrilhahn/cyril-hahn-perfect-form

. another hour another track baby!