Circuit Breaker

So I haven’t written in a while. in a looooooooong while.

And I’m not sure why. There were so many moments when I was walking and thought “I should be writing” but still didn’t. I would wonder about why I wasn’t writing. But I would never do anything about it.

And I had things to write about. There were things I noticed, or questioned, or were stuck in my head that I could have written about. But the truth was I hadn’t heard any new tracks that really compelled me to write. Or maybe I had. 

Back on October 2nd I heard both to Eastside’s Ellie and Jaymes Young’s I’ll Be Good and fell in love. I listened to both on repeat for what seemed like forever. But I couldn’t compel myself to write about them. As much as I wanted to, writing about being wronged and doing wrong, felt like too much. Trying to write about these two songs felt like I was about to open two closet doors that were holding huge piles of shit ready to cascade down on me the moment I turned the doorknob.

Yeah.

So.

I didn’t write.

I just thought about writing. 

And I’m still not writing really. 

I’m just writing about writing.

Or about what I didn’t write.

But that’s kinda writing isn’t it?

Oh well. Who knows. All I know is that during my writing hiatus, the other music I listed to repeatedly was the new Wildcat!Wildcat! album. Every. Fucking. Song. Is. Magic. 

I saw them live at Bottom of the Hill too. And experienced one of the best band performances I’ve seen in a while. These four guys made me so fucking happy. Even as I was being separated from my friends and slowly bombarded by a rather eager and awkward gentleman caller (you gotta love software engineers) I wasn’t annoyed at all. Because when you’re listening to one of the loveliest albums performed by four of the loveliest boys, you can’t help but sing along and smile…

…and maybe be compelled to start writing again.