OMN | Betwixt

I don’t think I can.

When i first heard this song, it sounded so negative. So defeatist. So full of doubt. It made me so sad. And so confused. Why would someone say this over and over again? Why would someone repeatedly say they couldn’t do something? Like it was their mantra. Aren’t mantras supposed to be positive? Or motivating? Or at least help you focus on something you want?

But maybe “I don’t think I can” is positive. Maybe “I don’t think I can” is motivating. Maybe “I don’t think I can” is about letting go of the things you don’t want…so you can focus on the things you do. 

Maybe it’s about saying…

I don’t think I can…doubt myself anymore.

Or…

I don’t think I can…keep feeling like something’s been lost.

Or maybe…

I don’t think can…keep beating myself up.

I really like this song. The way it starts, the way it changes its tone, and the way it ends. It surprised me in a way I didn’t expect. And gave me a new way to look at things.

And perhaps a new mantra too.