Werewolf | CocoRosie

I’ve had a hard time sleeping the past couple of nights.

Sunday night, I was exhausted but just lying there. Monday night, I was antsy and a bit angry and just couldn’t sleep because I wanted to punch something or someone. Last night, I tossed and turned until the wee hours. Tonight, I’m antsy, annoyed, angry, and punchy again.

Something is up. I’m wondering if it’s because I decided to stop drinking for a bit. Maybe this sobriety thing wasn’t a good idea after all.

I’ve tried other outlets. I’ve been working on projects like this. I’ve been seeing a trainer. I’ve been running on the treadmill after work like I stole something. But it doesn’t seem to be enough. Becky mentioned that she’s been taking boxing classes with Sara and I started looking at boxing classes in San Francisco…a fun web search rabbit hole for an insomniac.

I tried to find the right music to help me get some sleep and decided to seek the help of my girls Cocorosie. I listened to their last album which I oddly hadn’t listened to until tonight. I wasn’t loving it. I liked Sunshine. But that was about it until I heard this song.

This song is the perfect lullaby for nights like these. The nights when all you can do is think about the reasons that you can’t sleep…and get angrier and angrier at the fact that they’re keeping you up…that they’re keeping you from having a few hours of rest…that they’re keeping you from starting tomorrow with a fresh, new, clean slate.

This song is the perfect lullaby because she’s singing you into twisted and shattered story that sounds like a dream. And although it’s not the most pleasant dream, it’s one you don’t mind being carried through. Because right now it’s the only dream you’ll be lucky enough to have tonight. It’s either go through what you’re going through and not sleep. Or go through what she’s going through and hope that it eventually leads you to some sort of…