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Between the Lines (Zimmer Remix) - Amtrac

Between the Lines (Zimmer Remix) - Amtrac

I said, every single lesson
Is stuck on loop

Oh, it must be an obsession
You overlook

I used to think there was some big lesson I was supposed to learn.

I usually wondered this after I got my ass kicked in some way.

Well…in one way in particular.

I used to play things over and over again in my head wondering how I ended up getting my ass kicked. What I did. What I didn’t do. What I said. What I didn’t say. Trying to figure out what I did wrong that resulted in me getting pummeled. And making tweaks to myself to prevent any future pummeling.

I said, every single lesson
Is stuck on loop

Oh, it must be an obsession
You overlook

I think I’ve been doing it since the 8th grade. Examining and iterating. Examining and iterating. Examining and iterating my behavior until I got it right.

I said, every single lesson
Is stuck on loop

Oh, it must be an obsession
You overlook

When I was constantly playing and replaying things in my head, I don’t think I realized what I was missing. I don’t think realized that no one else was doing that. I don’t think I realized that everyone else was just living life as I was trying to figure it out.

I said, every single lesson
Is stuck on loop

Oh, it must be an obsession
You overlook

I used to think there was some big lesson I was supposed to learn.

I usually wondered this after I got my ass kicked in some way.

Well…in one way in particular.

I think this whole time, I got it wrong.

I think this whole time I was trying to learn the wrong lesson.

Or…

…maybe I actually just learned it.

Waving, Smiling - Angel Olsen

Waving, Smiling - Angel Olsen

Heavy (Icarus Remix) - Bow Anderson

Heavy (Icarus Remix) - Bow Anderson