Phases | Howling

The other night I told Aaren about n uncomfortable situation I found myself in.

“What is your gut telling you?”

Answering that question isn’t easy.

My gut tells me to not give up. My gut tells me to cut my losses and get out. My gut tells me to not give up because I always cut my losses and get out.

But the truth is, answering that question is never easy. Because my gut has told me anything and everything. 

It’s told me to go into dark abandoned buildings to experience music in a way I never had imagined. It’s told me to get into a car with a stranger to see the sea lit up with stars. It’s told me to lie to a room full of authorities. It’s told me to leave everything I’ve ever known. It’s told me to get dressed and leave before he gets out shower. It’s told me to say I was sorry. It’s told me not to say ‘I love you’. It’s told me that something was wrong. It’s told me that everything is okay.

My gut has lead me astray as meany times as it’s pointed me in the right direction. 

So when Aaren asks “What is your gut telling you?” I just want to say “Who the fuck knows. That bitch is just as ambiguous as I am.”

But I guess she’s all I’ve got.

And we make an fucking fun and adventurous pair.