Kerala | Bonobo

I can’t even with this week. With this year actually. But this week in particular.

It’s so uncomfortable when something that has brought the most joy in your life also brings some of the biggest heartache.

It’s awful when something hits so close to home.

This week my friend Josh wrote something that really hit me:

Calling all music lovers, do what Johnny Igaz would have wanted - put together a best of 2016 set/mix/whatever. Johnny loved music and so would always try and share as much as he could. One way he did this was to put a best of the year DJ mix together. I do the same, although was thinking of skipping this year - now that is NEVER gonna happen. I call on others, even if not a mix, focus on music and put out a best of the year set in his honor. Sure this year has sucked, but the music keeps us up, so let’s focus on the positive.

It was such a strong and loving reminder that we should make sure this beautiful thing that has made this week so hard, was what brought us all together and is what helps us thrive.

This week also made me revisit something Johnny had posted about kindness a few months ago:

Being kind is the coolest. Working on being more kind all the time, I really struggle with natural negative tendencies. It feels like translating into another language in my head – you first think in one language, and then need to consciously turn the thought into the language you’re learning, before speaking or acting. As with anything, it gets easier the more you do it, though

I remember thinking that was so odd and familiar at the same time. That someone who always had this smile on his face and constantly made you feel accepted struggled with negative tendencies. And that it echoed so many things I’ve heard and felt about myself.

This has been a heartbreaking week for sure.

But if what’s left leaves me sharing what I love and being kinder a little bit more, then…

…well…

…i guess…

…what’s left leaves me sharing what I love and being kinder a little bit more.