I Feel You - Sun Soaked Mix | Kaskade + Zip Zip Through the Night + Pinguin Mofex

I was listening to this track all day yesterday. Partly because I love it, partly because I love this album, and partly because it reminded me of my Dad.

I know what you’re going through.

Listen I’m a lot like you.

We’re just a different shade of blue.

I feel you. I feel it too.

Yesterday was Father’s Day. The 13th was his birthday. And the 9th was our annual brunch at his alma mater.

The weeks, leading up to this one week, were rough. I was bitchy, anxious, annoyed, angry, sad, nervous, exhausted, confused and a bunch of other emotions that I guess someone goes through when grief rears its ugly head. But in the end, experiencing each of those days was beautiful.

I spent the 9th with my mother and godfather in Chicago having one of the most enlightening brunches (and weekends) I think I’ve had at U of C.

I spent the 13th swimming in the Aegean Sea with some of my oldest, and closest, friends, talking about how lucky we were and toasting to “Stanley!”

And I spent the 16th on planes taking me from London to San Franciso while listening to this song on repeat…when I wasn’t watching ‘Speed’ (Keanu for life!) or ‘True Detective’ (Season 3!).

I know what you’re going through.

Listen I’m a lot like you

We’re just a different shade of blue.

I feel you. I feel it too.

For a significant part of my life, my dad and I would have the best conversations. We’d talk for hours about stupid stuff, real stuff, weird stuff, and deep stuff. We would be able to talk about how felt about our lives, our worlds, our dreams, and our fears with no judgement. We would go from laughing at how ridiculous we sounded, to crying while we talked about how much we meant to each other.

My dad just got me.

And I got him.

I got his sappiness, his weird sense of humor, and his inclination for sadness, his “fuck it” attitude, and his appreciation for being alone.

I know what you’re going through.

Listen I’m a lot like you

We’re just a different shade of blue.

I feel you. I feel it too.

I don’t know if my dad ever listened to songs endlessly on repeat.

But I have a feeling he did.

And I have he feeling he would have loved this track.