Youth | Ben Khan

I’m having a weird day. An off day. A day where I just feel kind of angry.

The thing is the day didn’t start off this way. It actually started pretty nicely. But then someone played a song…that reminded be of someone…and the day just took a turn. 

I wish it didn’t. I wish I didn’t have someone in my life that can evoke such a negative reaction reaction in me. I wish I didn’t have someone in my life that made me wish I’d never met them even though I know I don’t really mean that. I wish I didn’t have someone in my life that hurt me.

But I guess wishing that means I wish that I’d never put myself out there. I guess wishing that means I wish I’d never experienced things I didn’t know i needed to experience. I guess wishing that means, in a way, I wish had stayed where I was.

And I know that’s not true.

You’re right Ben Khan, I’m so foolish.