Falling | Masonair

Falling isn’t always a terrible thing. In this song I tried to turn it on its head. That failing can often mean you are reaching for something. It’s about surrounding yourself with good people so that when you do fall you fall next to people that can help you up

Last night a guy from my past reached out. His mom died and he wanted to see me.

It took me a while to figure out what to do.

I’m no stranger to wanting to connect with people I’ve disconnected with. And I’m no stranger to wanting to connect to people who are having a hard time. I’m no stranger to putting others first. And no I’m no stranger to losing a parent.

But I have been a stranger to saying “no”. I have been a stranger to not putting myself in uncomfortable situations. I have been a stranger figuring out how I feel…before I do something about it. I have been a stranger to listening to my gut…when my head and heart are involved.

There are a lot of reasons why I shouldn’t meet up with him. There are lot reasons why this might be a bad idea. I keep wondering if this is a test - that if I say “yes” to this then I’m somehow saying “no” to something.

But there’s a part of me that wonders if maybe this is a different type of test. That maybe this is a chance for me to be there for someone when they’re hurting and still say “no”. Maybe this is a chance for me to be there for someone when they’re having a hard time and not put myself in an uncomfortable situation. Maybe this is a chance to be there for someone when they’re falling…and still listen to my gut…when my head and hard are involved.